7 a.m. the morning is really pretty today.
i saw two yellow birds.
the birds were playing outside my window.
i tried to capture the moment on camera.
but they were too fast.
too fast for me at least.
and before i know it, the moment is lost.
just a memory in my mind which in due time i may forget.
just like how you are just a memory in my mind i may forget.
maybe tmrs will not be the same anymore.

sometimes we just need a good friend to burst our balloon that has floated so absurdly up in the air to come back down to earth and smell the air that is so still, where the truth hurts.
it was plain for me to see. i just saw what i wanted to see.
i deluded myself. imagined you up to be someone incredible, when actually if i got to know you, i'd be disappointed. i'm pretty sure.
infatuation got the better of me.
silliness. irrationality. stalker. psycho. all rolled into one, obsession.

she said, 'there's a timing for everything'.
i say, ' will there every be a time for you?'


i never needed. i only wanted.

closest thing to perfect : juliana theory