i'm not weird enough.

Christmas was somewhat quiet this year, but its been a great day.
spent midnight of the eve with my family.
and then was off to meet kat and later jam.
went flea on christmas.
bought a few little somethings.
got my beetle cardi-like top and flowery shirt.
but all these couldn't take away the void i felt in me.
i took comfort in the little things around me.
everyone laughing and just plainly having fun.
lovers were merrily holding hands and making plans. i smiled.
children and parents screamed in excitment when the foam snow fell. i felt excited for them. i smiled.
met up with my lovelies. i smiled.
i thought of you and how happy you must be. i smiled. but felt an pinch in my heart.
and today a day after christmas i dreamt of you. i smiled.. but this time it was in my dreams.
so i smile and tell myself that things will be fine. more then fine.

I LOVE CHRISTMAS nonetheless.

happy boxing day.

and happy birthday dearest cousin.