bah...!!

i had a beautiful dream. a happy dream. i dreamt we were all happy in a beach. the setting was beautiful. we were all really happy. the kind of happiness we haven't felt together in a long while. i miss everyone terribly. i miss us all together. if only we could be happy and careless like before. could we? i didn't think so. in the first place everyone's busy with their own life, no one makes time for anyone anymore. there are more fucked up important things in life. i wish things could be much simpler. back to the days when things were much simpler.
relationships fuck us up.
work fuck us up.
money fuck us up.
education fuck us up.
we fuck our families up, we take them for granted.
am i making sense?
i dunno where this is leading to.
i just think maybe we should find the right direction and its time to live our lives differently.
appreciate the simple things more. take the time off to spend with the family.
does anyone hear me? i wonder....
don't get me wrong. i am happy but its really only skin deep. so am i really happy? sometimes when its not about relationships, work, or money.

you reminded me once again why i should just stay the way i am.
you may think i am petty.
but walking out from a relationship that gave me crap and now the same things happening.
no thanks mister.
i think i've had my fair share of that.
i can do without these emotional baggages now.
not that its a burden or anything.
i just wanna have some time alone. Alone.

jun: hey babe.. sch is starting next week. when u coming back man? go mambo jumbo..
haha. hope things are going well for you.. hugs.