my dear princess.. i don't think anyone is dissappointed with you or the sorts. we've all been in situations like this where we have to make a decision that's probably not too right. we're just worried for you, not upset with you. and i know that being on the outside we see things differently, and no matter how much we say we know what you are going through, we actually don't. i understand if you are frustrated. i've been there where everyone cannot wait for me to get out of the relationship. and that feeling sucks big time. i know it wasn't easy to break the news to anyone, and somehow you did. no one's judging you. and i just really want you to be happy, so whatever decision you make, whether right or wrong. you'll still be the same person to me. and when you fall, i hope you'll trust that we'll all be here to pick you up. our friendship is worth more then this right or wrong shit. which we often choose the wrong choose. all of us for that matter of fact. we have to go through downs to feel the ups. i guess that's the beauty of life. for me this is all too bizaarre.. life is getting too real. things i thought could never happen, occurs in each of our lives. its just scary to think about it. isn't it. ami making any sense at all....
and stef the i am poo poo thing is so not funny ok.

to my sister: i hope that you'll recover from it all. and just really live life to the fullest. there's alot more beyond what we see right before us. life is bigger then this box we put ourselves in. and i hope that you'll find what you are searching for. someday. its time to wake up and smell the fresh air.

you found your way into my dreams somehow, just like you promised.
it was a beautiful dream, cause you were beautiful.
but i'm still a little unsure and afraid.
i'm fucked up from the abuses right now.


we strive so hard in search of that one, that we overlook all the wonderful people on the way.